The first month of 2021 is almost over.
I meant to post my 2020 wrap-up earlier, but, of course, I’m me, so it’s coming to you late. Just like the title suggests, this post is just a general overview of what 2020 was like for me in different aspects of my life. Of course, 2020 had its downs, but I’m really happy that there were some ups too!
To start off with some good news, I read 100 books in 2020! For the longest time, I viewed a hundred books as the benchmark for a lot of books read in a year. In my eyes, anyone who was capable of reading 100 books in a year was automatically a fast reader. I’m happy that I hit this special number of books in 2020, though just barely.
To be fair, if some disappointing books hadn’t put me in a reading slump in July/August, I probably would’ve hit 100 easily. But the slump coupled with the start of school made me go from averaging nine books a month to three. If I hadn’t had Christmas break in December and speed read 26 books (most extremely short), I never would’ve hit 100.
I regret setting my reading goal so high, though. In 2020, I noticed something extremely alarming: I was simply reading books to mark them as read on Goodreads. I wasn’t reading books to enjoy them (actually, I barely enjoyed any of the books I read in 2020). I was simply reading them to finish them. That was when I realized that, at some point, reading had stopped being fun for me.
People usually say, “The amount of books you read does not determine whether you’re a reader or not, you’re a reader as long as you love reading and it’s an integral part of you.” That made me wonder: Is reading still an integral part of me? The answer is… no. Being a member of the online book community and liking words (but writing them as opposed to reading them) is an integral part of me, but honestly? I could do without reading.
I think that I’ve grown disconnected from reading because my standards are just too high. I have certain expectations and preferences for how things are written in books, and I find that I can’t enjoy a book if those aren’t met. Of course, that’s really unfair to the author—I hate rating a book low because “it just wasn’t for me,” even though I can’t pinpoint anything objectively wrong with it.
So, where does that leave me? It’s really awkward to run a book blog and not like reading.
In 2021, I’m going to try to fall back in love with reading again. I won’t be participating in the Goodreads reading challenge because it makes me pick up books for all the wrong reasons. Instead, I’ll pick up a book purely when I want to. I’m eager to see what happens when I don’t put any pressure on myself to read.
I was going great in the first half of the year consistency-wise, if not quantity-wise. I’ve always wanted to be the kind of blogger who can post more than once a week, but unfortunately posts take a lot out of me. After I publish one I just want to take a rest.
In the second half of the year, I was extremely inconsistent. Getting back into writing combined with the start of school made it almost impossible for me to find the time or energy to blog.
Actually, in 2020 I grew a little disconnected from blogging. I feel like every teen blogger starts out very enthusiastic about building their platform. You know when you’ve just started out, and you’re so eager to grow that you comment on approximately 15 posts a day, put out at least two posts a week, and reply to comments within three days? I was definitely like that in my first year of blogging, but now that I’m nearing my second anniversary (I feel old!!), I find myself battling burn-out and having to force myself to write posts. Many posts take days for me to make, and I don’t think I can spend less than five hours on a post anymore. When I’m done I just want to lie down on the floor from all the effort of making my words make sense and formatting.
Of course, I’m sad that I’m not as passionate about blogging as I was before, but this is sorta a good thing because now I’m not as obsessed about stats, and am less likely to forego things like sleep or homework for blogging.
On a much brighter note, my stats saw a huge improvement in 2020. I finally found my blogging voice, and of course, I’m very happy to have won best teen blogger in the 2020 Blogger Awards!! I wasn’t able to hit 1,000 blog followers… but allow me to be full of myself for a moment and say that I definitely would’ve hit it if I had posted more.
Some 2020 Posts that I’m Proud of Writing & Did Well:
The introduction to book blogs post is my most successful post ever, and I’m so glad! I made it because book bloggers need so much more appreciation, and I’m so happy that people in the comments said that I highlighted the strengths and conventions of book blogging well.
I’m not sure where I stand on blogging in 2021, but I do know that I’ll try my best to be more consistent. I’ll attempt to post once a week, reply to comments in a timely manner, and not completely neglect the posts on my Reader!
Actually, 2020 was not a bad year for me! Yes, I know. It was the year of COVID-19 and other very unpleasant things. But in regards to my personal life I’m content.
I’m super introverted, and I hate going outside my house, so I was perfectly equipped to deal with lockdown. It is getting boring to be stuck in the house, but I can honestly live with it. My only problem with this whole lockdown thing is that online school takes up so much time!! My weekdays are filled with homework and studying.
However, I changed classmates this year, and I’m finally in a class with my closest friends! This is such a small thing, but I’m so happy because I’ve always been unlucky when it comes to class reshuffling. Being with my best friends has made school so much more bearable. My first semester grades were also better than I expected, which is great because this is an important school year for me!
My biggest accomplishment of 2020 (and perhaps of my lifetime) was being on TV!! I got to go on the TODAY show and talk about diverse books and being represented in literature. This was a very surreal opportunity that I’m extremely grateful to have been given.
I feel like writing has replaced my love for reading. I’m far from good at it because I’m still relearning the ropes. The last time I worked on a WIP I wasn’t even ten years old, but I’m honestly so much more enticed by the prospect of creating stories than reading them! My greatest goal is to write a book that I wholeheartedly love, because as I mentioned before I have unique preferences and it’s difficult for me to love a book if those aren’t met. Winning NaNoWriMo 2020 was amazing, ignoring the fact that I decided to scrap everything I wrote because it was all wrong.
Lastly, I got back into BTS and k-pop in 2020!! I was a super cringey BTS stan in 2017, and I slowly lost interest in them. I don’t know what happened in 2020, but I randomly started watching a few of their videos, and just like that I became a fan again. BE was an amazing album, absolutely no skips!!
I wouldn’t consider myself a part of any k-pop fandom, but I do follow the activities of groups I like. Besides BTS, I like ITZY and NCT. I thought NCT’s 23 (and counting) members were too much at first, but it actually works in their favor, because there are so many different personalities and friendships to fall in love with!!